Decisions, Self Control, and Stubbornness

Three of the things weighing heavily on my mind tonight.  Although there's not much to consider.  It more just the weight it provides.  I want to be weightless and free!  I'm currently spring-cleaning my life in order to feel more this way!

The timing of everything sucks.  Why now?  Why is this something I must deal with?  I think it's a test.  The answer is clear, so that solves the decision portion.  The struggle will lie in my stubbornness (which I've always claimed to have but - let's face it - I'm a people pleaser and ultimately end up giving in.  Not this time though) and in my self control, for I almost think I'm more a danger to myself than the situation is to me.  Only I can determine if I carry through with my decision.  Only I can determine my actions and my will power.

God, give me strength!

Chocolat Chaud

Hot chocolate is one of the greatest inventions of the world.  It's perfect for stopping time and forcing you to truly enjoy it's rich flavor, while savoring the warmth it provides.  It calms you down, cheers you up, and ultimately is one of the most serene drinks in the world.

Tonight, I'm grateful to be luxuriating in the benefits of hot chocolate once again.  It had been a while, which makes my reunion with the beverage that much more enjoyable.  Further, when it's necessary - when you're using the drink for the peace it provides - it just becomes that much more delectable.

Hot chocolate shall forever have my appreciation and gratitude.

Sleep

Sleep is glorious.  You're body does so many remarkable things while you're asleep, and yet you never realize it.  Instead, you awaken feeling refreshed, at peace, and ready to start a new day.

I've been missing that feeling, though.  Sleep deprivation has taken its toll, and my body and mind are exhausted. Even picking up a bag feels like strenuous work!  Which is why now, three hours earlier than I have for the past six nights, I will be going to bed for an unspecified amount of time ... and without an annoying beeping to wake me up.

Good night, sweet dreams, and rest well!