Exhaustion is upon me now. Droopy eyes. Fatigued muscles. My mind running in circles, and then running again in those same circles because it forgot where it left off. Sleep would be ideal, but then again, no one falls asleep at 11:40 in the morning. Caffeine? It's a possibility. But again, not very likely, as I feel instead I should just revel in this feeling of utter tiredness. My head feeling heavy, my mind going blank. It's a nice feeling, and an awful one simultaneously. The lack of energy and enthusiasm for life is disconcerting, coming from an optimist. Yet the stillness... the peace... the feeling like everything is stopping, or could stop if I want it to. This is what is so incredible, and what only comes with complete exhaustion.
Monday, September 26, 2011
Saturday, September 17, 2011
"Cold Turkey"
So in reference to my previous post, I did some digging. It appears that the phrase "cold turkey" has a couple theories for its origin.
The most likely seems to be that in the 19th century, people in the United States used the phrase "talk turkey" when they'd speak of an unpleasant topic in a blunt and direct manner, which over time evolved into the more common definition of ending an unpleasant habit abruptly and entirely.
However, there is also reference to drug addicts and the fact that when they abruptly quit their habit, they break out in cold sweats and have goose bumps. One would think, then, that it'd be called going "cold goose" instead of "cold turkey".
...I'm sticking to theory number 1.
The most likely seems to be that in the 19th century, people in the United States used the phrase "talk turkey" when they'd speak of an unpleasant topic in a blunt and direct manner, which over time evolved into the more common definition of ending an unpleasant habit abruptly and entirely.
However, there is also reference to drug addicts and the fact that when they abruptly quit their habit, they break out in cold sweats and have goose bumps. One would think, then, that it'd be called going "cold goose" instead of "cold turkey".
...I'm sticking to theory number 1.
Starting Over
It's so hard to start over. I often have the desire to. To just stop everything I once did that I don't like, and to start again with how I do want to live. It's true especially with bad habits. But it's nearly impossible to stop "cold turkey" as the expression goes. (Why is the expression "cold turkey"? Are cold turkeys difficult to manage?)
But today I've resolved that, like this blog, I will just aim to make each and every day the way I want it to be. I may not be successful, and may fall back into habits I don't exactly want to, but I'm going to strive to be the person I want to be the majority of the time. Each day is a new day, and life is nothing but a process. It continually changes and, with it, so do I.
So here's to "starting over", or, as I would like to call it, "continually changing"!
But today I've resolved that, like this blog, I will just aim to make each and every day the way I want it to be. I may not be successful, and may fall back into habits I don't exactly want to, but I'm going to strive to be the person I want to be the majority of the time. Each day is a new day, and life is nothing but a process. It continually changes and, with it, so do I.
So here's to "starting over", or, as I would like to call it, "continually changing"!
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