There is nothing like a hot creamy mug of hot chocolate to cure the soul's afflictions.
And my soul is grieving at the moment, so I'm thankful for the small comfort my hot chocolate is providing me.
I am, for the third time in my life, dealing with the death of a family member, though the first two occurred while I was so young that I do not remember much about them. Last night, on March 14th, my dearest grandmother passed away. She was quite old, so my family had known her imminent passing was approaching, but it still seems so surreal to know that she is no longer on this earth. That I can no longer visit her and make her smile. That I can no longer share my life with her, including future joys that I'm sure are to come.
I'm going back and forth between shock, utter breakdown, and relief. I'm in disbelief that she's actually gone. There have been many times last night and this morning where I just find myself sobbing with tears streaming down my cheeks. And then there are the times when I know that she is in a better place. That now she is with God, and hopefully reunited with my grandfather who passed away nearly 20 years ago. I know she'll be looking down on me and watching out for me. I just hope that I can live up to being her granddaughter.
My grandma, like most, was a sweetheart. She was the kind who would ask about your day and listen to you ramble on for hours as a child. She was the kind who would slip a $5 or $10 bill into your pocket as you said goodbye. She never failed to amaze me with the stories she would tell me about her life. Her life is such an inspiration to me. She lived her life without ever getting a parking ticket, and she'd always try to do good and make people happy. She made the best blueberry muffins I've ever had and will ever have in my life. She grew up teaching children in a one-room schoolhouse, and she supported her military husband entirely.
I only hope I can model at least part of myself after her. A God-loving, law-abiding, happiness-inspiring person... that's who she was and that's the legacy I'd like to carry on in honor of her. I hope I can treat my grandchildren with the love and inspiration that she did for me, my siblings, and my cousins.
I will miss you dearly, Mimi, and will love you always. Until we meet again <3
And my soul is grieving at the moment, so I'm thankful for the small comfort my hot chocolate is providing me.
I am, for the third time in my life, dealing with the death of a family member, though the first two occurred while I was so young that I do not remember much about them. Last night, on March 14th, my dearest grandmother passed away. She was quite old, so my family had known her imminent passing was approaching, but it still seems so surreal to know that she is no longer on this earth. That I can no longer visit her and make her smile. That I can no longer share my life with her, including future joys that I'm sure are to come.
I'm going back and forth between shock, utter breakdown, and relief. I'm in disbelief that she's actually gone. There have been many times last night and this morning where I just find myself sobbing with tears streaming down my cheeks. And then there are the times when I know that she is in a better place. That now she is with God, and hopefully reunited with my grandfather who passed away nearly 20 years ago. I know she'll be looking down on me and watching out for me. I just hope that I can live up to being her granddaughter.
My grandma, like most, was a sweetheart. She was the kind who would ask about your day and listen to you ramble on for hours as a child. She was the kind who would slip a $5 or $10 bill into your pocket as you said goodbye. She never failed to amaze me with the stories she would tell me about her life. Her life is such an inspiration to me. She lived her life without ever getting a parking ticket, and she'd always try to do good and make people happy. She made the best blueberry muffins I've ever had and will ever have in my life. She grew up teaching children in a one-room schoolhouse, and she supported her military husband entirely.
I only hope I can model at least part of myself after her. A God-loving, law-abiding, happiness-inspiring person... that's who she was and that's the legacy I'd like to carry on in honor of her. I hope I can treat my grandchildren with the love and inspiration that she did for me, my siblings, and my cousins.
I will miss you dearly, Mimi, and will love you always. Until we meet again <3
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