Thursday, October 4, 2012

My Current State

Michigan.

Okay, so I know that joke isn't as funny as I'd like it to be.  (Actually, a lot of jokes I tell/find hilarious really aren't that funny... you can ask any of my friends.)  So let me try again:

My current state...

Eyes drooping, head tilted, sitting.  Fingers poised over the keyboard for extended periods of time before inspiration comes as to what to write.  Long, deep, lung-filling breaths.

Mind whirring at a million miles a minute while simultaneously being slow... I know how to describe it: disjointed.  Thoughts that start but do not end.  Stimuli that register, but then are quickly ignored or forgotten.

I think I'd call this state exhaustion.  Which is truly a shame, because I'm hoping to leave tonight, driving as far east as I can.  This state, though, is most definitely the result of sleep deprivation, of stress, of a list of obligations and responsibilities that does not seem to end.

Perhaps I should start taking care of myself first, before becoming so overwhelmed.  Perhaps then I'll feel better.

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